this is "blah" .

if u like him, go for it la dey.
anw, let u knw something.
i don't want to talk to him already.
i just can't stand it.
more complications and stuff.
BLAH!

bye!
talking to u is just so....*speechless.
empty.
no topic. ):
even if i had,
i don't wish to say "it" out.
anw,
have a safe trip, boy!
see you. (:
i'll miss you though.

went to seraphina's house today.
bought stuff for audrey's birthday...
and prepared it.
then, went to play guitar.
headed home later.

GIG. (;

went to REDBAR with
joey, seraphina, laura and yusheng
yesterday...
for hung, haziq, syazwan, deleon and hakim's performance.
had lots of fun.
And i met cheryl & her friends there too. (:

anw, watch out for my next post.

BLAH!

i don't wanna love another.

" Women don't want to be...

mens' burden,

but Men just love to...

find and carry that burden. "

~

i'm so freaking " xp & ): ".

-

somehow,

i just can't figure what i should do.

seeing u melts my heart

but if i'm gonna hurt many people

just to be with u...

i just don't want to think about it.

fate just brought us together...

maybe just to only be friends.

or i should just hit myself on the head

and fall into a coma

so that my worries and feelings would be gone.

-

i don't want to be heart brokened.

i don't want someone who loves me but just so sensitive with what i do.

i don't want to wait but don't want to rush.

i'm just so confused and maybe depressed.

i'm lost.

sitting down and reminiscing those days when i had u by my side.

"Relationship...

is just a status,

Boyfriend/Girlfriend ...

is just a name."

~

Hmmm...

Somehow it's kinda true,

but after thnking about stuffs that i've done,

maybe it's not.

Seeing this qoute reminds me of the times i had

with this person i loved.

Oh nooooo!

-

; At the old school gate...

u made me feel a sense of security.

; At the school bench...

u pictured me in your future.

; In the taxi after sch and that secret...

u gave me instead of told me.

; Eating in the library...

breaking the law together.

; At the park behind our school, under that hut...

u proved me how much i meant to u.

It's been more than a year,

why do i still think about the things i've done

and the times i spent,

together with u?

-

I knw that i've neglected u,

but i really didn't wanted to do it.

I regret doing that so much that till now,

even when i think of it,

it still hurts me deeply inside.

U made me do this

and u're hating me for doing that.

I'm going to be in the same class as u next year,

i wish u could just remember the best times we had together

and forget the rest...

-

I LOVE THIS POST!

aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhh!
im so fucking pissed.
fuck the world,
fuck everybody...

anw, im waiting for eyes
to come back, then can talk.
hurry up!
im going bonkers.

damnit! u drive me crazy!

awwww, im bored. ):

finally, some part of the problem is settled.
im so bored now.
almost everybody's playing mia.
what the hell?
chatting to seraphina now,
maybe going her house later.
kuku eyes! sleeping now.
basket! wake up!
nvm, talk to u at night.
im so bored can.
arrrrggggh!

i want to talk to u,
but we just seem so far apart.
if u wna 'tokyo' drift,
then probably i leave it just the way it is.
it's not too late to change what's gonna happen in the future
'cause i do have feelings for u...
anw, talking to u now makes me feel weird.
like im carrying a really huge burden...
i don't want things to go on like this.
let me think about it and figure things out first.

boo ya!
finally, im back.
so much have happened (don't wish to elaborate)...
chat with joey till 6 plus in the morning then went to bed and woke up like 4 hours later.
i've been like mia for the past 3 weeks and so much happened.
found out many horrifying truths...

#1.
i've been accusing the wrong person for the wrong stuffs the whole while.
wanna apologise to her, im sorry. ):

#2.
i can't believe someone around me has been so freaking observant.
it's kinda scary...observant! :/

...i dont wanna elaborate further, these were two more important stuffs.

anw, im so bored at home.
supposed to meet seraphina, genevieve, joey and yu sheng...to go arcade,
but im so tired and sleepy. *yawns... and it's like raining now.
chat with eyes on the phone just now,
he sounds so different over the phone.
told me lots that i didnt knw.
awww, dont be so emo about that one point luh, eyes.
practise and im sure u'll be winning in no time.
i'll see u play some other time.
goodluck for ur match!
oh and love just sms me. (:

the boy you never wanted just steals your heart,
i never saw it coming, 'til i felt so hard.